No one who has ever tasted anything by Wyomingâs celebrity chef Petrina Peart would ever guess she has any self-confidence issues behind the smiling face thatâs presenting her latest masterpiece.
After all, the Cheyenne-based chef was just one vote shy of beating celebrity chef Bobby Flay on the Food Networkâs âBeat Bobby Flayâ show â no easy task â and she was tapped to serve as a U.S. culinary diplomat.
More recently, the chef, who has been fearless about promoting all-vegetarian menus in meat-hungry Wyoming at places like the Paramount Ballroom in Cheyenne, was tapped to serve as the executive chef for the Wyoming Governorâs Mansion.
Peart really is at the top of her game, but her brother, Hubert Johnson, who is involved in culinary endeavors in Las Vegas, sees an entirely different side of Chef Peart. He sees the side thatâs a little too worried about the outcome every, single time.Â
Thatâs why he nominated his sister for Martha Stewart and chef Jose Andresâ new cooking competition series, âYes, Chef!â â without telling her he was going to do it.
The show, which airs Monday nights starting at 8 p.m. MT on April 28 on NBC, pits 12 chefs against not just each other, but against themselves.Â
Each chef appearing on the show struggles with a fatal flaw, including Chef Peart.
Their ego is too big for the kitchen, or their stubbornness is turning into arrogance, or they are more intense than a 500-degree oven on a 103-degree summer day.Â
To win the âYes, Chef!â competition and its $250,000 grand prize, the chefs will not only have to create spectacular food while under immense pressure, but they will have to show improvement on their personal fatal flaw, whatever it might be.
Phone Call Out Of The Blue
Given the premise of âYes, Chef!â Peart was mighty surprised when she got a call from the showâs team, inviting her to participate in the selection process.Â
âIt was a good surprise,â Peart told Cowboy State Daily. âBut itâs funny, because when I saw (my brotherâs) video, I didnât think it was very accurate.â
Until, that is, she was confronted with her over-perfectionist ways on the âYes, Chefâ show. Which, ultimately, that made her appreciate her brother all the more.
âMost people donât know that I struggle with things like that,â Peart said. âThey see my career progression and think that Iâm just like the typical, always confident kind of person. Thatâs not me at all. Iâm constantly second-guessing a lot of things. And for him to see that internal struggle, it made me feel seen.â
In Chef Peartâs case, itâs not ego, temper or stubbornness thatâs holding her back in life and culinary adventures.Â
âI feel like certain career fields or career paths have a certain level of ego attached to them,â Peart said. âAnd I donât have that. But I do overthink a lot, and that kind of leads into this like, perfectionism thing. You know, the imposter syndrome, if I donât get it right every time.â
What Is Imposter Syndrome?
Imposter syndrome doesnât have an official diagnosis in the manual of psychological disorders. But itâs still something that can be stifling to those who suffer from it.
The term was coined in the late 70s by a couple of psychologists, Pauline Rose Clance and Suzanne Imes, whoâd noticed a pattern of high-achieving women, who, despite their evident success, felt like frauds on the inside.
That created a lot of internal, secret anxiety for the women, who feared they would eventually not be able to live up to their own reputations. Abundant evidence to the contrary didnât seem to quell those anxieties either. In fact, more often than not, it tended to ratchet up their intense, internal fears.
Itâs a cycle Peart said she now recognizes is at play in herself.Â
âWeâre like artists in that we take an idea and we manifest it into something real, something tangible, and something that I put on a plate to say, âThis is what Iâve created. How do you feel about it?ââ Peart said. âAnd if they donât like it, well, thatâs like, my heart.â
Those fears do come from a place of good intentions. Peart just wants to do an amazing dish that wows every, single time. But anxiety around achieving that ideal also means wasting precious brain space on second-guessing and overthinking.Â
That might not affect the overall outcome of what sheâs serving up on any given occasion, but it still takes away from the overall enjoyment of creative process. And it can, sometimes, cause people to avoid opportunities for growth as too risky.Â
âItâs the pressure that I put on myself thatâs the thing I need to work on most,â Peart said. âAnd so thatâs one of the reasons I decided to go on the show.â
Meeting Martha Stewart And Chef Andres
Peart also liked the concept of a show where sheâs actively working on an area that needs to improve, rather than just competing with yet another round of chefs to see who can make the best dish.
âI think it was Jose Andres in the preview who said, âTheyâre not just battling their contestants, theyâre battling themselves.,ââ Peart said. âAnd thatâs very true a lot of the times in the kitchen that my best friend and my biggest enemy sometimes is myself.â
But another of the big reasons Peart was excited to be on the show was the chance to meet home-making guru Martha Stewart, who is legendary for her expertise in cooking, entertaining, and decorating, as well as celebrity chef Jose Andres, a renowned chef, who started World Central Kitchen, an NGO and nonprofit group that provides humanitarian food aid all over the world. Both are people she has admired from afar.
âMartha Stewart is like the reason I love table-scaping âmaking a beautiful dining table,â Peart said. âSheâs the reason I love creating a beautiful centerpiece and all of that.â
Andres, meanwhile, is what Peart described as the âepitome of a beautiful human being.â
âHis heart is so big,â Peart said. âJust the World Central Kitchen and helping out California and Haiti and in Palestine. Heâs been all over the place and itâs just a beautiful passion project. I think heâs a culinary giant, so to be in their presence was just, Iâm pretty sure youâll see when they appear for the first time, weâre all just kind of star struck.â
For Peart, working alongside these two was like a dream come true.
âWe all have these giants we put on pedestals and itâs like, OK, I know Iâm successful when I reach that level,â Peart said. âTo get to a place where youâre in the same room with such people, thereâs no words for things like that, experiences like that.â
Harder Than âBeat Bobby Flayâ
âYes, Chef!â being a reality series, though, was a much different experience than her appearance on the âBeat Bobby Flayâ show.Â
While she was familiar with everything in the âYes, Chefâ kitchen, there was one element that particularly surprised her.Â
âAll the cameras,â Peart said. âThat was probably the only thing that was really like a new experience for me.â
There were, of course, cameras on the âBeat Bobby Flay,â show. But there was only one other contestant at work. In this case, there were 11 other contestants, each with a camera crew team following their every move.Â
âEveryoneâs on a 30-minute timeline,â Peart said. âAnd thereâs like 25 cameras everywhere. Iâve always been kind of under the spotlight, being observed, working in an open kitchen with people walking by and watching you work.â
But this was next-level intimidating, with someone filming every single thing she did, mistakes and all, in a kitchen where 11 other people are scrambling for ingredients and ideas.Â
The fact that she was the only chef representing Wyoming was foremost in her mind, she added, which added a little bit more pressure to it all.
Peart saw another chef fall down during one episode and that put a little more fear into her as she was working.
âI was like, âOh God, I hope they donât catch me falling,ââ Peart said.Â
Whatâs Ahead For Chef PeartÂ
One of the big things on Peartâs calendar of upcoming events will be visiting her brother this summer in Vegas, to thank him for nominating her for the show.Â
Before that, though, she is planning a small watch party with friends to kick off the series, and sheâs looking forward to seeing how things unfold.Â
âThere are so many things that you miss when youâre recording, because youâre focused on your own experience,â Peart said
In the meantime, Peart is in the midst of planning a garden for the Governorâs Mansion, where sheâll grow lots of herbs and fresh produce for her creations.
âI really love that connection of growing and cooking and feeding people with (garden fresh food),â she said. âSo, Iâm really looking forward to that this spring, and working with the First Lady, who always has a garden and loves gardening. Thatâs going to be fun this spring.â
She will also be doing a little bit of travel in the next couple weeks. She was one of five chefs tapped for a restaurant takeover in a couple of weeks at the Hard Rock Hotel & Casino Bristol, which is located in Virginia.
âWeâre doing a seven-course culinary experience,â Peart said. âItâll be the weekend after the show premieres.â
Peart hopes people watching the show, âYes, Chef!â will be able to relate to and learn from her personal struggles as the show unfolds, as well as apply what they learn to their own endeavors.
âThere will be lots of unpredictable things that you just kind of have to tune in and then cheer everyone on â not just me from Wyoming, but everyone else, too.â
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Renée Jean can be reached at renee@cowboystatedaily.com.